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Tue, Sep. 29th, 2009, 02:29 pm
FOR YOU INGWEED. BIG WUV INGWEED

 1. What was the last thing you put in your mouth? My pen.

2. Where was your profile picture taken? Lollapalooza! Grant Park, Chicago!

3. Can you play Guitar Hero? No, I'm realllly bad at it.

4. Name someone who made you laugh today? Leah, Timmy, the French hottie who walked me home.

5. How late did you stay up last night and why? Midnight, because I was trying to finish physics and read.

6. If you could move somewhere else, would you? Right now, I would love to be in Grinnell. I really miss it.

7. Ever been kissed under fireworks? No. 

8. Which of your Facebook friends lives closest to you? People from my group, but more importantly, Ingrid. And I suppose Ann.

9. Do you believe ex's can be friends? It depends. I have one ex who I would consider an entirely platonic relationship. It's nice.

10. How do you feel about Dr Pepper? Num.

11. When was the last time you cried really hard? On the way home from Nepal. I sobbed for about 3 days.

12. Who took your profile picture? Ingrid!

13. Who was the last person you took a picture of? Leah.

14. Was yesterday better than today? Kind of. I made a French friend. And I got to climb. Sooo yes.

15. Can you live a day without TV? I do regularly.

16. Are you upset about anything? I am upset about: 1. How anxious I get everytime I have to go to physics (even though there isn't much to worry about) 2. Why the French hottie didn't give me his number! wtf. 3. How much I miss Grinnell/how I can't believe I missed Claire's 21st birthday extraveganza!

17. Do you think relationships are ever really worth it? Sure. But not-relationships work too.

18. Are you a bad influence? I can be.

19. Night out or night in? I want a good night out here. I've come to the conclusion that my friends are awesome during the day, but don't want to do anything at night. Feeeccck.

20. What items could you not go without during the day? My house key, my tram pass.

21. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital? Carl

22. What does the last text message in your inbox say? "Bye Ruth! You're awesome. I just found out I leave 3 days earlier than I thought! Whoops!" --Jon

23. How do you feel about your life right now? It's alright. . It's a kind of nice in between. I'm not too stressed, I have a good family, and some friends. We will see.

24. Do you hate anyone? There's one person who will never, ever make it to my 'good' list.

25. If we were to look in your FaceBook inbox, what would we find? A lot of really cute messages from Jon

26. Say you were given a drug test right now, would you pass? Yes.

27. Has anyone ever called you perfect before? No.

28. What song is stuck in your head? 'Don't trust a ho/Never trust a ho.'--3Oh!3's DON'T TRUST ME

29. Someone knocks on your window at 2:00 a.m., Who do you want it to be?  that French hottie.

30. Wanna have grandkids before you’re 50? Good god.

31. Name something you have to do tomorrow: Go to lab, go to class, teach a little girl English, go back to class, go to a party?

32. Do you think too much or too little? Right now, I'm feeling like I've been thinking too little my entire life.

33. Do you smile a lot? When I feel alllllright.

Sun, Sep. 13th, 2009, 11:31 am

As I was walking home last night, I passed a window out of which someone was blasting, 'Moulin Rouge.'

Heh.

Sat, Aug. 29th, 2009, 08:31 pm

 Ahhh being terrified and no self-confidence makes the baby go blind. 


shit. i can snap out of this, right?

Sun, Aug. 23rd, 2009, 12:02 pm
I feel the pain of everyone/Then I feel nothing

 I don't want the summer to be over/I miss everyone. 

Pretty much everyone has gone back, except Ingrid and Jon. And I don't even know about Jon. He's great, but predictable. He 
has some growing up to do. I miss Mason and Jordan and Doug. I miss playing Fact or Crap, beer pong, Super Smash Bros. and generally
just pissing away life in Mason's basement. 

Maybe I'm just menstruating.

Maybe I have some growing up to do. Yeah. 

As afraid of it as I am, right now: I just want things to be more stagnant than they are. 

Sun, Jul. 19th, 2009, 11:13 pm
The Beautiful Girls

 It's so nice to be home. I drove home from an afternoon of lazy climbing with Alex at the wall, feeling the warm wind and listening to Sublime catch all the right feelings. Being home for the summer is always kind of like being in a vacuum. You see the same people, do the same things, all without much input or output. Nothing ever really changes too much, and at this point? It's really nice. 
Although I did hurt my finger climbing, and that is not so nice. Especially typing.


Of the women in my life:

I don't think I'll ever be able to express how much love and respect I have for Ingrid. The way she has grown to be a beautiful, strong, and wise girl is constantly on my mind whenever I see her. Waking up to see her and hear her goofy "Hewwwoo!!" this morning was so...right. One of the hardest parts of going back to Iowa is knowing that neither she, nor Samantha are with me.
And god, Sam is funny. She hasn't really changed, but I wouldn't want her to. She's so strong, gorgeous, and independent, and crazy and wonderfully level-headed, all at the same time. 

I think one of the most constant, recurring theme in all of my closest friends is strength. And at this time, the Eklunds, especially Ingrid and Anna, are so strong and courageous. But Anna has always impressed me with her strength. Her lack of fear and persistance in what she believed in was always notable. And she really is beautiful. 


doo doo doo .....woahhh...amber is the color of your energy.....

I really love climbing, but nothing could ever replace the feeling of hiking alone. 

what could be better than that? life's not about what's better than...

As I was leaving the wall today, I was thinking about how scared I am, at the moment, of my sexuality. I'm scared of how lackadaical Grinnell has made hooking up and sex in my mind. I'm all about sex, and often encourage it. But I'm scared of my history, and my ability to block out emotions. I'm scared that I'm starting to be interested in guys as sort of a machine reaction. Not really for total interest. Does this make sense? Probably not, but I'm scared, and even thinking about my own carnal pleasure grosses me out. Maybe because I just called it, "carnal pleasure," which sounds disgusting as it is. Either way, I think I'll pass for now.


Seriously though? I'm really in love with John Butler.

Victor and I finally figured out some residual stuff, which makes things a lot better. It was good that he came and visited in Colorado, but you can't ever really overlook lasting frustrations. I'm glad I told him what had been making me hate him for the past year. But now that I know how easy it is, maybe I should communicate all of my feelings via email. That seems to work well.



I've spent so much time with my mom these past few weeks, due to my brother and dad being in Enlgand. She's a great woman, who doesn't give herself enough credit. She's incredibly intelligent, and very motivated, which makes it hard to see her be so self-deprecating. 


...i was your silver lining...as the story goes....i was your silver lining...but now, I'm gold.

Never
Ending
Peace
And
Love
...........it will change your life.





Fri, May. 29th, 2009, 03:49 pm
Lost in Translation

You know what's a dope ass city? Hong Kong.

Catch me here: http://ruthecampbell.blogspot.com



Peace out, U.S. of A.

Sun, May. 24th, 2009, 11:50 am

Summer is nice because you can focus on the here and now.
Which is hard for me.

all is i know is, all i know is, i love you.

it's nice to know that the future is coming, but will be there eventually, and doesn't need constant supervision.



Wed, May. 20th, 2009, 01:08 pm

so oldddd.

Mon, Apr. 27th, 2009, 10:17 am



This is a Tit Head film from this year with a ton of my friends in it. So gross.So so good.

Sun, Apr. 26th, 2009, 12:44 pm
Thinking.

-Titular Head last night--so good.

-Felicity threw up in my hand last night after passing out on the floor

-Claire and I got in a massive fight that included lots of screaming and crying. Things have been better; things have been resolved.

-Woke up early and did some painting while talking to my mom.


...I've started to come to the conclusion that I don't want to be a doctor anymore.

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